the prayer plant

The Letter T

Trust me, it’s no fun to be having an excitement, inclination or an impulse over something that cannot be fulfilled, the feeling of frustration taking over yourself as the lights are off, feeling confined as to have no one to talk it out.

Trapped, not feeling enough if you abstain. In which you really ought to. “But how do i stop myself? how do i suppress? wait... is there even a way?” The thoughts that have been running through your mind all night.. as the lights are off. Once again, you only have yourself to talk it out.

Tricked, the thought of having it all figured out, a battle between yourself and your mind have been put to an end as you convince yourself that it is not even a problem to try. Hence it is such a simple thing to put to an end. But however it was all lies and deception, all this while it was just an act of distorting the truth, the fact that you had that in your mind was just.. nonsense. 

Transparent, forget all the deceit and try to be true to yourself, trust the process, find ways to distract, accept and take it all in. “Hey, it’s nothing right? but wait.. am i doing the right thing? am i swerving towards the right path?” — Deteriorating, why don’t i feel good? why do i feel like i am still swinging in the same direction, just as how the moon orbits the earth, moving away, but ended up on the starting line 

Truth, as you came to an epiphany that all of it was just a phase, of a cycle that you went through and will go through as you know it is a never ending cycle. In which that is why it is called a cycle, for eternity.

x.