All He Ever Did

Make School A Safer Place.

            “It's simply making schools safer. "What's the point of debating?"

The toxic culture of sexual harassment in schools, which has resulted in negative social media responses, many of which are lewd, while the official response has been nothing but disappointing.

            “It’s nothing” It makes no difference.” “It doesn't even matter,” they say.

Let me tell a bit of a story that turned my life upside down.

I was in Standard 4, a period in one's life when you were supposed to go to school and... just have fun. There were no big exams or anything to commit to, it was all a-ok until I was paired up to sit next to this guy.

He would touch my thighs every day, moving his hands up slowly, trying to touch my breasts by tucking his hand behind my back. He would do this every-single-day. I remember having that fear that I would think of it every night, “what do I do if he does it again tomorrow”

I just moved into that school, I had no friends and I don't even want to make friends, I was only close to my math teacher. Telling my math teacher about it was the scariest thing that I could even imagine (was too scared to tell my parents). 

All my math teacher did was flirt with me, calling me sayang and inviting me to hang out with him, texting me at all hours of the day and night. Taking advantage of the situation, I trusted him, I really did. How foolish of me to put that weight on myself. Just another burden to bear.

I told myself that I needed to be strong and handle this on my own. I'd take a scissor and point it at him every day to scare him, but he'd just laugh it off and take the scissor away. Few years passed, I had a boyfriend in Secondary School, we were in Form 2/3 (my ex-boyfriend was friends with that assaulter). I told him about my experience.

All my ex-boyfriend did was inform the assaulter of the situation. requesting that he expressed his regret to me. The ending was absolutely.. mind-blowing. The guy said "sorry" and laughed it off. Is that all I deserved, after years and years of agony?

They laughed it off in a group chat, saying I was overreacting to a situation that had occurred years before. I am now 21 years old, and what you did has stayed with me ever since, it’s still fresh in my mind. You know who you are, if you’re reading this, Hazim. Fuck you, and all of your friends. I know what you guys did to my girls. I still have the receipts.

To all the guys that have ever talked about my body, my thighs, my bottom.

I remember every single one of you, I remember every single name.